Bagong Buwan

For now, all I can say is that I never understood anything Edward said til the last scene before the movie ended. Detailed review to come.

Wide Open

Too much happiness. Too much pain.
You can never have everything.
So many disappointments.
Better to not have anything at all.

How depressing it is to think that,
I am overwhelmed by the negativity that surrounds me.

The efforts I make on being pretentious,
when things have never been different.

Vindictive and disdained, seems at a loss
No sense of direction, or purpose at the most

Vagueness and transparency, oh the irony.

Should I stay or should I go?
Should I deprive myself of happiness.
Wallow in misery?
So I can feel the need of empathy?

A simple play on words, and on life
To live in ambiguity, is to feel alive
For change is the only thing that is constant..

Optimism has never been auspicious.
To be an antagonist to oneself, has been what I am.
And as I walk past through the crowd,
I constrain myself from conformity and decadence.

When everything seemingly looks simple, it all becomes very complicated.

Random Blabbers

I watched idly as time passed by. With me just staying at home. Itching to go out but something's holding me back. Laziness. Yes folks, I am in fact lazy when in bed. My mind wanders of million miles away yet my body stays glued to the sheets of my bed.

I try not to think about work, since I'm supposed to be resting.

I can't help but count the hours, the minutes and the seconds that go by for me to back at the office. I still have one more day to TRY and relax.

Big dreams. Material stuff. Happiness. Wholeness.
With days of not doing anything productive, I haven't found the answer to most of my needs yet.

In time, I know I will have many, I'd be where I want to be. Whether it be in a stress-induced environment or out in the wilderness.

I'll keep in mind though that I should be out of the city limits when on leave.