You Make Me Smile

Like a breath of fresh air, so invigorating.
Stricken with overhwelming emotions for such a nonchalant presence.
I am smitten with her incomparable beauty.
How does one show affection?
Of love and of hatred.
Of happiness and of grief?
Does one merely state one's current mood?
In my case, I'd rather express it through poetry. I'm not one with big words, but I know good enough how to tell it all.
I can't say for now that I am IN love. There is no such thing for me, unfortunately. I can only be inspired. Inflamed with momentary passion.
And so the days go by with reveries. Unaware of what's exactly happening around me. Caught in deep thought, with a smile on my face.
I am in fact captivated by an undescribable beauty.
Yes, you definitely make the sun brighter every day. You never fail to make me smile.
I never believed that this kind of feeling would make give birth to insects nesting and flying inside one's stomach.
Okay, that was a bit gross.
What I'm saying is, I can now say that this feeling of having butterflies fluttering inside my tummy's quite true.
I break into sweat whenever you're near.
Just when I thought I had become too impassive, you've made me too transparent.
And when everything suddenly turns upside down, you make it come right back up.

So I break into a little poem;
The life and the love
I can never get enough
And so she passes by
With that twinkle in her eyes
Walking past this dazzled stare
A sensation I cannot bear

I continue on, loving every minute of this profound sensation.
And as I said, you never fail to make me smile.
A smile that's totally out of the ordinary.
So genuine.
You make my heart skip a beat.
Unknowing of this growing affection, you make it all the more motivating.
Though everything in my life seem to be too complex, you make it oh so simple.

You're definitely one of a kind.

It's as if all the love songs on the radio were made just for you.
Not a day would go by without me thinking about you.
And so I hide away in silence, keeping these emotions to myself.
I do not ask for anything in return but for me to be able to express whatever I feel freely here.
It is somehow depressing that I can never talk about her to just about anyone. Only because of this fear for some people's ignorance.
I guess I will be forever locked in stillness. This feeling will continue to linger on.
The first thought when I wake up and the last before I fall off to sleep.
If this is infatuation, what more if I was definitely in love?
But in every little thing, as my heart starts to sing, my days couldn't be much brighter. You never knew how special you have become to me. Didn't exactly expect for you to be the one who would make all my gray skies blue.

There I go again with the rhyming bug. As I said, I can never get enough. And what I meant about all the love songs referring to her, I'm serious. It kind of makes me a bit worried since I've never exactly felt something like this before. Where I would just smile out of the blue.
Okay, that's totally weird and scary. But I believe you know what I mean. Another reason why I don't talk about this that much is because I know what people are going to say. I mean, I've been giving advices to most people I know who's got the love bug and who's in a total mess. So imagine me asking myself for the same thing. I would have then recorded my pieces of advice in my phone so I'd get to hear myself and I get to help myself.
Am I being too self-absorbed? (don't answer that)
This person I'm talking about is someone with a higher authority. I think I'm giving away too much. Anyway, she seems to be too distant with her subordinates and doesn't exactly have a very good work-relationship with them either. Well, that's what I mostly hear. She's sort of preserved. Most of the time, she looks a bit too serious. But when she smiles, it simply takes my breath away. And to make her laugh is like an accomplishment. A fulfillment. I'm sounding a bit stupid, but I guess this is what it does.
A love drone, hooked on a love drug. Wait, didn't I just say that I am not IN love? I'm not. I don't believe that this is love just yet. I may have to observe this under a few months. Because off the record, I have yet to find out if I'm really in love.
What is love anyway?
Unconditional, right?
Never expect.
Exactly like what I'm feeling now. I believe I've found my answer.
I am in love.

This is my entry to the Blog Challenge 04: Because YOU deserve a post

The Badge

Guess what?I won first runner up in Mr. Talksmart's Blog Awards Challenge 2. :)
It's pretty neat, I get to have a badge and stuff. Thanks for those who voted for me. Watch out for my entry for the Blog Awards Challenge 4. I think a lot of people are going to be joining in since it stresses emotional depth.



Here's the badge:

Psychology Updates.

I've finally gotten through the enrolment process, which I could have never done on my own.I'm a bit ecstatic about it because I won't be wearing the required uniform. That's one of the good parts when you're working.

And as much as possible I'll try not to make friends while I'm studying, it kinda distracts me. I know myself too well that if ever I meet new people I sorta get hooked on them for a bit.Yes, only for a bit.
Because, knowing me, I easily get tired of something/someone.
Not unless they're interesting of course.
Anyway, back to my so-called fulfillment.
I took only 4 subjects so as not to overload myself. Since I'm still working and stuff.
Whenever I bring up Psychology in a conversation, people tend to think about psychics dnd the like which is totally irrelevant. Somehow that stupidity and ignorance of people gets to me.
Just because they sound the same, doesn't mean they are the same.
I've finally decided to have internet at home. (Yes, which means I'm paying for it).
Perfect timing since I'm going back to school and of course to blog non-stop.
Which is definitely a good thing. :)

Til then.

Tag team

Another long overdued post. Two tags from two friends. :)
First one is from Vannie, the second is from Blanne.

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MOVIES MOVIES

1. One movie that made you laugh.
Can't really think of anything right now. Hmm. Oh, any of Robin Williams' flicks.

2. One movie that made you cry.
Umm, Land Before Time. That was like years ago.

3. One movie you loved when you were a child.
ET

4. One movie you’ve seen more than once.
The Phantom of the Opera

5. One movie you loved, but were embarrassed to admit it.
I'm still embarassed to admit it so I won't tell. :P

6. One movie you hated.
Filipino movies. Mostly full of crap.

7. One movie that scared you.
The Grudge. Especially the part where this girl was crawling through the stairs.

8. One movie that bored you.
Vantage Point.

9. One movie that made you happy.
Happy Feet? Haha! Kidding, I dig Enchanted.

10. One movie that made you miserable.
Vantage Point, I was so freakin' excited about seeing the movie. I expected something spectacular. But it was clearly a waste of time watching it.

11. One movie you weren’t brave enough to see.
Can't think of one.

12. One movie character you’ve fallen in love with.
Kristen Stewart. I so love her in Into The Wild.

13. The last movie you saw.
Speed Racer.

14. The next movie you hope to see.
The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian and Twilight.

I just wonder why most people I know are so against me taking up Psychology. Hmm. Anyway, it was funny how my friend was giving me instructions on who to look for at her school (and soon to be mine). She told me to look for this certain lady and even described her to me about how pretty she is and all that stuff. Even telling me that she's my type. There was this big question mark hanging over my head. It's not like I'm going back to school to meet someone. I know she was just kidding though. Anyway, off to college with me. (While working)