Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Losing Heart

What happens.. when you're in the midst of happiness and you're faced with such deep sorrow.
When death has finally swept in, waiting by the bedside. For the last breath to be let out.
What happens.. when you are forced to take on such responsibilities you're not prepared to handle.
When emotions before had never mattered but it has gravely caused you to shut down totally.
When all hope seems to be lost, what happens when you don't know how to find redemption and spiritual guidance.

I'm too overwhelmed with the things going on at work that I don't know how to react to the fact my dear Aunt who had been trying to fight to live, had been brought in the ICU again.
Stating that if she was to suffer or have another heart attack, she doesn't want to be resuscitated.
Inch by inch, I feel the sadness. Creeping into my veins.

I try not to feel too much sadness. I know it'll affect my work and other things.

I'm worried about my cousin who, at his age and how he was brought up, is now left with one parent.
I'll be looking after him from now on.

Such complications.

1 comment:

es said...

it's hard to question life in a real sense because we're only human. no matter how deep is our understanding about things, still we come to a point of inhibitions and "what if's".and we can only cherish each moment of our life that comes for nothing is ever certain.

it's not easy losing someone you love esp. a family member. i've been there and it felt pathetic. i felt like the world turned upside down. but life goes on.

hope you'll soon be fine. God is in control.