Transition

In a couple of days, I will no longer be the normal person (as I claim to be) that you know today.
Our schedule, team name and all of that has now changed. And we are going to be transferred to night shift. 9PM to be exact.
I'm finding it difficult to deal with the team I'm with right now. They get dumber by the minute, well some of them that is.
I may be a little unfair since some of them are still new to the job but still, I don't know how some of them passed communication skills training.
I think they need re-training. But who cares what I think, right?
Anyway, they bore me to death. That's why I'm finding ways of having myself transferred to a different team with a different shift. Perhaps 2am or 4am.
The sad part about that would be not being with my parfait, but she understands why I'd want to transfer anyway. Aside from isolating myself from annoying newbies
and unfathomable grammar, the pay's better with my preferred shift.

Segwey to family issues.
My Aunt just died last night. I came home from our Badminton Semi-Finals at work and I came across my mom who was on her way to the hospital because they received news about her sister passing away.
She told me to go home right away to accompany my cousin, who's still a kid, alone at our house (we live in one house).
That stupid pedicab driver even saw my mom crying and didn't even budge, still waiting for other passengers. As I got home, I saw him crying. Telling me about how his mother seemed okay hours before she had passed away.
It must have been too great of a pain that my aunt had simply given up hope of recovery. Too much dialysis had weakened her body. I know it will take time for the family to heal but I can't seem to share the same emotion as what they have.
Although I do understand the gravity of the situation, still I can't force myself to feel pain, depression and grief (though, in most cases it does come naturally without cause).
I'll miss her. Her wacky personality. Being head of the infection control committee of one of the prestigious hospitals here in Davao, you'd be surprised.

And how about me? Am I alright?
I can't answer that. I'm caught in between work, play and family responsibilities. And all of this has made me numb. Perhaps not too numb, but a little bit overwhelmed that I can't express myself. Just a blank face. As if there was a void in my hypothalamus.

Til next update.

Strawberry Parfait

The title is tempting, isn't it? My favorite dessert. Makes me smile too.

I've always tried to avoid saying something at a certain point that will have me regret and experience the opposite sooner.

I've never been that expressive with feelings or anything that relates to being all sentimental and acting too sweet.

Then came this person who is my exact opposite (except for the gender).

Too sweet, too sensitive and too much great of a friend. Never in my entire 20 years have I met or even had a friend like her.

She's a gem.

This is my only way of letting the world know of how appreciative I am for knowing someone like her.

Even though people at work kind of talks about us being too close, I don't care because there is definitely nothing beyond that closeness.

I've found someone whom I can confide in and talk about things I've never managed to tell other people.

Although trusting her with everything about me will be a little difficult since I have trust issues.

You break it and it will never be fixed.

Things have been pretty hectic at work.

I'm still caught up with our badminton and volleyball tournament as well as our dance production for the Christmas Party.

Tomorrow (Monday), we'll start working on Step Up 2 production. Getting a bit excited about it because our choreographer seems to know his stuff.

Our Step Up 1 production's not that bad so hopefully the  Step Up 2 part will be better :)

Til next update.

Pain in the neck, back and everywhere else

It would either be that I'm too damn tired to talk about anything or am I just stalling.

Or could it be I put too much pressure on myself to even think that the following words/sentences are even substantial.

Dear Aftercall,

Lately I've been too annoyed and irritated. And no this ain't about a goddamn PMS.

I've been too tired. Too lazy. Too bored. Too ME. A lot of things have been going on in my mind. I can't even sleep right.

If you ask about my family, I'm really not in the mood to talk about them right now. Well, since I did bring it up I might as well say it. Right?

My good-for-nothing brother has been using the internet connection, I'VE been paying for, too much. I know it sounds as if I'm too damn selfish and too disrespectful.

But hey, I don't want to force myself into respecting and even tolerating a bum. Someone older than me who doesn't even know how to wash his own dishes nor clothes.

I admit I don't wash mine too, we have someone else to do that for us. Anyway, he doesn't have a job. Asks for material things that he thinks are easy to get. Lets everyone at school know how selfish I was for not lending him my DvD player, when in the first place he didn't ask.

Even asks my mom for money every other day to pay for gas for a car that isn't even his (lucky for him I don't have a fuckin' license) just so he can travel around with his lame-ass girlfriend who in a way started a fight with me that I don't even know where it began.

I may be coming in way too deep here, but what I'm saying is why in the world would I give someone the benefit of using hard-earned things when in fact that person's not even worth.

He is of no use to me. He may be my brother of the same mother but the blood isn't thick as how it should be.

Oh how wonderful the household would be without his dark and smelly presence.

This all started when I was left the computer on so I can finish downloading something when he arrived and he turned off the modem, thinking I was already asleep and wasn't even checking my computer.

As soon as he locked himself in his room, I came down and eventually turned off the computer and put away the modem and the other cables.

Now, there was that moment when I woke up a bit earlier and noticed the modem's being used again by that prick, I turned off and then back on the modem, so at least he'd think the line just got disconnected.

Then my mom kept insisting I fix all the cables (they went haywire), I intentionally disconnected the cables and turned everything off, leaving his laptop on.

When he woke up (late as usual), he asked in a loud voice who unplugged the cable. I didn't even bother talking to him nor admitting it was me, I was too busy cleaning my room.

And as expected, my mom (if she really is my mom) confronted me about it. I didn't rebutt or whatever, I know he'd make it look as if it was all my fault. I let it pass through my other ear.

Since then I never bothered to talk about anything at home.

Now, if you suggest that I move someplace else I don't think that would be a good idea since I am paying for the internet here so at least my cousin and our "Ate" who helps us out at home can use it for school and shit.

I'm also paying for our Cable TV connection. And I can't leave my dogs. Perhaps if I've had too much. I might go with that option. As of now, I can still pretty much handle it as what I've been doing for most of 20 years here on a planet they call Earth.

Next, would be people at work. Unexplainable and unexpected feelings for this certain person (I'd rather not say). To be asked as someone to watch over our team while

our team captain's away. Be bugged about the dance practice that seems to be so unorganized and so unprofessional with only a week left to finish everything. And about that, the people I'm supposed to perform with are the same people I was with during our Cheerdance presentation thingy.

And their idea of hip hop street dance competition is a bit too pop-jazzy modern. To mistake Tutting for Krumping? First off, I respect people who know their craft but to INSIST that one knows about different types of hip-hop I'd say you're WHACK! Not that I personally know and have performed such types, but I am familiar with them and that doesn't mean I've got the right to let people know I know so much shit about it.

Back to the competition, since we've exceeded the maximum numbers of a team they decided we should be split into two. That's actually a great idea so at least whoever wins can still share the cash prize. But to think that we haven't even finished half of an Intro, how the hell can they pull this off? Using the same steps but different music? Isn't that a bit stupid when in fact we haven't even decided yet what mix we'd be using.

I've lost interest in dancing now, it's still my passion but as of the moment I don't think I'm up for dancing. I'm just a bit concerned about some people rooting for me to join in and stuff. I guess I'll be focusing on our Holiday Party production instead. That would be kinda fun.

Add to that being pressured about the games they signed me up for. Vball, Badminton and Dodgeball. Of course all events are scheduled every after shift. So aside from getting headaches from out-of-this-world people, we'd be getting blacks and blues too.

Good thing we won our first Volleyball game, rather than losing by default. Badminton is what I'm most worried about. I know I've won in the past, that makes it more burdensome since greatness is to be expected from me.

I guess it's a good thing my partner in mixed doubles department is kind of sadistic, hurting all of our opponents with smashes. What I'm more worried about here is the female doubles department, the load's all on me.

Crimony!

I'm lovin' all the attention at work, not that I'm actually asking for it, but of course it's flattering. I feel like a celebrity. Ohhh, vanity is a sin.

How befitting is it for the rain to start pouring as how I had poured myself all out here.

Til next update.

Updates

I am so kicking my ass off the floor right now. I've been too damn lazy to even think about anything to post.

So rather than talk about how I'm finding it difficult to write anything, lemme just rant about what I've been seeing on TV nowadays.

First off:

This telenovela that's all about punchlines. I think they're gonna make this one popular just because of those somehow inadequate and out-of-place quips and puns.

Whoever wrote the script should have also added specific locations where some of the lines would definitely fit in.

Not that I'm watching it per episode, I keep hearing most of my colleagues talk about it. Yes, you are right, I am yet again annoyed.

Next is the franchised Filipino version of Bea La Fea. I would've opted for the US version, at least the building and the office didn't look anything at all fake.

Sure they've made it all colorful and stuff but it just seems that the lead dude ain't right for the part. Perhaps sticking to the exact same story line might make it too TH. If you know what I mean.

Btw, I'm gonna leave you with a couple of videos about a presentation we've been practicing on and finally presented for our GM's (General Manager) Cup Opening.

The first one would be our practice performance in progress. (You can try to find me)

Second one is our final performance, I've made some errors, but hey you're not gonna be able to see that since it's a back view only. Hehe.

The games has started. We were first up on the list for the Badminton match. Mixed doubles, women's and men's. We won the Mixed Doubles. Sad to say I goofed off too much when I subbed for the women's division. My bad.

Looking forward for the next game. I'm just somewhat concerned about my partner's principle though. See, even though he's gonna lose, at least he was able to make a mark on the opponent's body (preferrably the face). He makes one hell of a smash.

Til next update.

Out the window

I have simply lost all the respect that there was supposed to be left for our ever scandalous and crackpot government.
Not that I care deeply about our country or whatever, somehow that sense of security is slowly slipping away too.
Ain't it amazing how that ZTE scandal simply vanished into thin air. Wonder if that guy got shot or something.
Oh politics, I was never really great at them.

Anywho, my desire to look for a better job has been put to a halt. Not because I love my current job ever so much but of the fact that if I'm going to resign now, I'd be missing out on our Christmas cup.
And I'm expected to be present since we're the defending champions in Badminton mixed doubles division.
This plan of taking on a diferent type of job has been postponed too many times already.
Hayy. Perhaps I won't say anything or plan anything for now, so it won't blow up on my face right away.

Oh, is anyone following the VMA's Challenge for Best Dance Crew?
Kaba Modern and Fanny Pak are the top two.
And just recently, Fanny Pak had been announced as the winner.I was soooo rooting for Kaba Modern,
though I didn't exactly find anything new on their choreo.
But I still love them. Fanny Pak may have one the war but never the battle. (Do I sound like a psycho-fanatic?)

I wasn't entirely interested in watching the most talked about show for the moment.
But then I got bored and rather than watching an hour long movie, I decided to buy a dvd copy.
And yes, I am talking about GG.A whole lot better than The OC, which has so much friggin drama. Though GG also has its oh-so dramaticans uper alcoholic moments, it comes fashionably with style.
And Chuck is the least handsome yet most interesting character among the whole cast.
Too bad Eric's gay, him and Jenny would have made a cute couple.

I'll be going out tomorrow night with my teammates. Drink til we drop. Dress to kill. I'd prefer Suit to Kill though.

WALL-E

What if mankind had to leave Earth, and somebody forgot to turn the last robot off?

Academy Award®-winning writer-director Andrew Stanton (“Finding Nemo”) and the inventive storytellers and technical geniuses at Pixar Animation Studios (“The Incredibles,” “Cars,” “Ratatouille”) transport moviegoers to a galaxy not so very far away for a new computer-animated cosmic comedy about a determined robot named WALL•E.

After hundreds of lonely years of doing what he was built for, WALL•E (short for Waste Allocation Load Lifter Earth-Class) discovers a new purpose in life (besides collecting knick-knacks) when he meets a sleek search robot named EVE. EVE comes to realize that WALL•E has inadvertently stumbled upon the key to the planet’s future, and races back to space to report her findings to the humans (who have been eagerly awaiting word that it is safe to return home). Meanwhile, WALL•E chases EVE across the galaxy and sets into motion one of the most exciting and imaginative comedy adventures ever brought to the big screen.

Joining WALL•E on his fantastic journey across a universe of never-before-imagined visions of the future, is a hilarious cast of characters including a pet cockroach, and a heroic team of malfunctioning misfit robots. (courtesy of Rotten Tomatoes)

Okay, so this is somehow an outdated post about the movie. I watched Wall-E along with friends from work weeks ago. I've been looking forward to watching the movie since I'm kind of a big fan of animated movies. Well, for some of them though. This is indeed another Pixar masterpiece. Very well done, creating a 3D-2D effect that appeals both to the young and old.

To be able to convey a message that even kids could understand without any dialogue for most parts. And isn't Wall-E just so darn adorable? The way he calls EVE as "Ev-a" is kind of funny too. To think that we'd all turn to blobs in the future because we were brought up to depend on what we think we are abundant of.

Of love from the heart and care for the world. One of those movies, you'd want to see with your friends and family.

Giving this movie, 4 stars.

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Perfect Attendance. Just 3 more days and I'll be able to complete a month without any absence. Of course there's an incentive for this.

This was supposed to be a team PA (Perfect Attendance), then it was down to only the 4 of us. Isn't it just sad to work with someone so inconsiderate? With no sense of responsibility, none whatsoever.

Then there's that newbie who just makes my eyes flinch, eyebrows glued together and my face 30 years older. I might be being a little unfair but the way she asks me technical questions is just damn annoying. To top it all off, she's sitting next beside me which I'm not quite comfortable with.

Or maybe it's just this damn headache that's really bothering me.

I guess I need to get some sleep.

Zzzzzz

Back to School

my first day of school

geek squad correspondent

we missed the bus

From our Back to School theme at work. We had fun acting like kids. Good thing for me, I look like one too. And no, I didn't dye my hair here yet. I'll post it perhaps the day after tomorrow. :)

I'm thinking about quitting my job and taking on a different direction in my career. It's not exactly about the money or what-not. I'm a bit tired of doing the same thing over and over anyway. The way we are pressured may have been changing a lot, but we talk to the same people anyway. And that job that I'm interested on taking is web/ads designer. It's still in line with what I've wasted my time for the past 4 years anyway.

Til next update.

Here's our next team ID. ^_^

It goes like this.

Imagine this:

You've been with this person for over 2 years, you feel like something has changed but that person hasn't.
Then comes in this badass but not bad-looking 3rd wheeler who's been hitting on the girl.
note: she'd been telling me stories about how she got cheated on by her first boyfie and was never taken seriously before.
It had lasted for months, all the flirting and stuff like that. Then with a snap, the girl breaks up with the boyfie on his birthday.
Hooking up with that no-good 3rd wheeler. And so after weeks of spending eekie PDA moments together, she's realized that a lot of people had noticed the big change and "WHY IN THE WORLD IS SHE GOING OUT WITH THAT JERK" buzz is going around already.
Now she's thinking about going back to her ex because their personalities (with that jerk) seem to clash and basically don't mesh well.
The fire's starting to fade out.
And so this ex of hers is actually one of those guys you see on TV. The typical too-good-to-be-true boyfriends. Never cheated and very dedicated. (Hey, they actually exist!)
I just feel so bad for the guy that he's been messed around with but of course, I'm not one to judge a person.
Then her ex starts asking me about how I can help him get them back together (she's making him wait).
Well, I liked the idea at first, but then he started saying something about giving me stuff in return. I was like, what the f*ck. I'd be more than happy to help but not because of bribery. It feels so, so bad. (No other words to put it.)

Now, the point comes to this. I do understand that things had gone and passed already but to be cheated on and to do the exact same thing to another person who's been friggin honest with is not enough reason to start playing around.

And I also understand that there really are some certain circumstances that you can't handle and things start falling into place, but still, if you're going to back yourself up with a reason that it's been done to you first, then that's plain bullcrap.

Whatchathink?

Or maybe I'm started to get annoyed with the girl acting all kooky and macho about things, or maybe my old self's coming back. (Ohhh.)

Personality Test

Ok, so I'm a bit of a sucker for this sorts. But hey, it somehow gets to you right? I mean, it's almost as if this particular generator-test-type-of-thing can describe your whole being. I know most people would find ways and means to look for something or even someone who can try to sum them up as a whole person. From traits to interests. From political views to favorite delicacies. Let's face it, one way or another we're all vain and a bit narcistic sometimes.
I'm diggin' the slide since it sort of looks neat and sleek. Don't you think so?
Take it. :)

I've got a list of movies I just finished watching but I'm not about to post another movie topic here.
Let me just get this off my chest.
I almost blew my cover about keeping the identity of my crush hidden. I've been cursing myself over and over because my face (and I friggin' felt it too) turned red. Ok, so I'm pretty much bad at this. But I've managed to divert their attention to another person whom I'm supposedly having a fling with (by which of no truth, none whatsoever).
I'm ashamed of myself being too mindful about what other people would say if they found out who she was. She's not exactly the prettiest of them all. I guess I just like her in the inside.

I'm not in the mood to go back to class, sit in front of a boooorrrriinngg teacher reading everything off from her Powerpoint-outlined lesson. Her methodological way of teaching is by far the most uninteresting process, ever. (dot dot dot)

Listen to this:



I'm not typically into this sort of thing, but I like the beat. Makes me wanna dance. :)

Vantage Point

I'd been all jittery about watching this movie. The trailer seemed to be interesting. From different points of view, the end's all the same. Truth be told, it was a total waste of time when I watched Vantage Point. I mean, they just turn to another person's side of the story, that's just it. Nothing more. Nothing too special about this movie. Yeah, plainly about assassination, terrorism and the like. But there's no depth in the movie. I guess the writers got to engrossed with spicing up the character's point of view that it totally neglected the bigger picture.
All that excitement gone to the dumps.

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I've finally gone back to school. It's funny how people reacted when they learned I was already a 2nd courser. And I know what comes to mind; "Don't I ever get tired of studying", "Why'd you take your first course anyway" and all those stuff. Well, for one, I've been interested with Psychology ever since my 2nd year in college, but my first course (IT) was a priority which definitely helped me out with my job.
It's a lot different to be studying in another school. The standards and rules aren't the same. It was as if I was thrown into the wild. Like animals gawking, hovering, ready to pounce on new meat. But of course, I know better than to give in. Add to that my age. Senior in my class, so to speak. And for this term, as much as possible I do not want to establish friendship bonds with them. It's nothing personal, it's just that I want to focus on studying and my work at the same time.
I've only got 3 subjects for this term. 2 majors and a minor.
Will I survive?